Dark Empath

The Dark Empath Awakening

What happens when an empath survives a sociopath's attempt on their life?

What happens when an empath--a person with hypersensitivity to the emotions of others due to Borderline Personality Disorder--survives a sociopath--an abusive person with Antisocial Personality Disorder who has no empathy?

When an empath survives an attack from a sociopath, they’ll be blessed.

All empaths will be entangled with sociopaths in their lives, just as all sociopaths will find themselves triggered by and obsessed with empaths.

The empath is created from the same root as the sociopath: extreme childhood trauma.

The difference between them is that one was the scapegoat child and one was the golden child. Both suffered tremendously.

In clinical terms, they’re referred to as borderline personality disorder and narcissist personality disorder. But BPD is often smeared and narcissists often mask as their scapegoats — empaths — so BPD has a lot of stigma and many never get diagnosed.

(For narcissists, it’s always good to keep empaths away from anything that could heal or liberate us. They recognize how powerful our love is, so they seek to keep us traumatized, confused, uninformed, medicated, addicted).

Narcissists feel triggered and afraid of love, so they seek to always control it, gaslight it, deny it, abuse it.

But something spiritual happens to empaths as we are abused throughout life.

Every time something really awful happened to me, even though I was crippled by trauma effects, I’d not retaliate or seek revenge. Unless my life feels in danger or I’ve just been blindsided by betrayal, I don’t feel good in reactive abuse.

Empathy causes me to feel the emotions of others and to love and emotionally connect, so revenge has never felt like a satisfying pursuit: my abusers were already damaged people and I could feel that.

Narcissists don’t have empathy, so if they feel hurt, they have no limit in revenge. They think their hurts are the most important in the world.

I didn’t have the same narcissism about the importance of my pain, though my pain has been severe. I’d always had to lick my wounds alone and was told my feelings were a burden.

Therefore, I focus on healing and learning from my experiences.

Every time, BLESSINGS WOULD COME when I found the lessons and healed.

A book publication, award money, a job I’d prayed for, a miracle….even beautiful dreams with messages from loved ones who passed.

Until the next trauma struck me with its fang.

Eventually, the empath meets the sociopath that is the catalyst to a dark empath awakening.

A sociopath like none other they’ve entangled with before.

This sociopath is their split soul — their mirror in opposition. Where the empath is light, the sociopath is dark, and Vice versa. They are Ying and Yang.

They have stunningly similar childhoods and synchronicities and coincidences in their lives. They also have differences in stark opposition, such as one being overweight and one being thin, or differences in race or social class.

With mine, his dogs were named after the same TV show as my cats, but I named mine after good characters and he named his after evil characters. Also, our birthdays were different, but comprised of the same numbers, and they added up to the same number. There were many other examples of this — the parallels and oppositions are uncanny.

For both the sociopath and the empath, meeting each other will hit like a lightning bolt and they’ll both feel an intense familiarity with each other.

Their traumas and identities match and complete each other like a perfect puzzle.

If the empath survives this severe attack — worse than any other sociopath has given them except their parents — their awakening will bless them DEEPLY, and cause them to tap into their deepest powers of strength, creativity, and healing, putting them on their soul’s mission to spread light and wisdom.

Here’s a famous empath (borderline) who responded and healed after his attack from a sociopath (narcissist):

There are similarities in cluster b’s, but you can tell who is the empath vs. the sociopath pretty easily: 2Pac is the son of a father who abandoned him and was named after a revolutionary who died tragically. Scapegoat kids are usually named after someone who died tragically or former supply of the narcissist parent.

Additionally, 2Pac’s art is DEEPLY EMPATHETIC: he talked about rape culture, feminism, poverty, police brutality…he had a vision, a message of revolutionary healing through radical love.

He understood pain, even pains he didn’t personally experience.

That’s what draws so many people to the empath: the desire to have their pains understood and heard.

Even sociopaths are drawn to us for this reason, though they’re also triggered by envy and the desire to mirror our identities.

The Notorious BIG was named after his father, and he also named his son after himself: a narcissist thinks only one person is perfect — themselves — so they name golden children, next generation narcissists, after themselves. Biggie’s music was about Biggie — and party, bullshit, sex, and murder. There’s no empathy in them.

Here’s what the empath had to say after getting shot:

I also survived a near death experience at the hands of my split soul sociopath, and I watched this video so many times after as I healed. I know exactly what he’s feeling.

It’s the feeling of the Phoenix rising from the ash.

There’s the gloat. There’s the strength. There’s the tired bitterness. And there’s the GRIEF.

That weary look on his face at the end when he says his name always GUTS ME.

That look on his face is the Phoenix rising from the ash — but also realizing that the people he’d loved most are burning in the flames, that he’s all alone in the world.

That he never wanted this: he only ever wanted to give love and be loved in return, to spread the vision in his heart.

The Notorious BIG and 2Pac were friends. He was showing up to record with him when he got shot.

In this video below, 2Pac discusses his feelings on God, how the church is corrupted but the stories in the Bible all show that God’s chosen suffer tremendously.

He reflects on his life as a scapegoat — being shot, being falsely accused for prison, being crucified in the media, being black.

He sees Hell as Earth, yet he recognizes that he’s been blessed. And he thinks that’s all from God.

I’ve had these same ruminations, turning to stories in myths and religions and finding meaning and parallels and magic amidst the rubbles of my suffering. I’m similarly critical of organized religion and its abuses.

The thing about an empath is that we’re alchemizers.

Reactive abuse is hard for us and causes suicidal collapse after: we have empathy even for those who harm us, so we can’t resolve our trauma by projecting it onto someone else. Empathy hurts. It’s a feeling.

You feel the emotions of others as if they are your own.

Therefore, we have to feel and process the pain of our abuse. We have to resolve the shame. We have to take it all apart and analyze it and grieve, through all the stages of grief.

We have to face the truth, no matter how hard.

That means we’re processing pain projected onto us by people who can’t process their own pain.

As we do so, we learn from their pain.

We often turn it into art to release it. And our light grows stronger.

We’re not perfect people: we live rough lives to get these lessons and we befriend many narcissists trauma bonding. Some lessons take longer to learn than others. We suffer what anyone does, from addictions to self harm to bad choices. We have the same insecurities that narcissists do as well, having been raised in the same kind of environments.

We also suffer collapses and rages: 2Pac’s “Hit ’Em Up” is the most famous borderline rage next to Britney and her umbrella.

Yet 2Pac’s last video before his murder, which was released after death, is called, “I Ain’t Mad At Ya.”

He wanders heaven, a Christ-like figure, looking down on all the people he loved who hurt others and empathizing with their suffering, focusing on their good memories.

In fact, several songs and videos before death have 2Pac forgiving Biggie, saying, “Once we homeboys, we always homeboys.”

WHAT DOES THE EMPATH KNOW THAT THE NARCISSIST DOES NOT?

Well…it’s empathy.

Because once we process that grief, we find the root of what caused it in the narcissist.

Empathy causes you to see things clearly.

WE BECOME MERGED WITH THE SOUL OF THE SOCIOPATH WHO ATTACKED US.

WE FEEL AND GRIEVE…EVERYTHING, down to their childhood trauma.

And it’s sad. It’s really sad. It’s really, really, really sad. It’s horrifying.

It’s no wonder they can’t face it.

We realize it could be us. It’s only chance it’s not.

We realize we’re a mirror of the sociopath in opposition.

We find our human intersections of suffering.

Our empathy deepens.

We discover that ALL HUMANS ARE ONE.

The sociopath was our other half, sent to teach us our oneness and our brokenness, as the empath is sent to teach the sociopath.

The narcissist teaches the empath there’s anger inside of them that needs healing.

The empath teaches the narcissist there’s love inside of them that needs healing.

The narcissist teaches the empath self love by forcing them to save themselves.

The empath teaches the narcissist what real unconditional love and mercy looks like, what they should have received as a child, but didn’t.

The empath learns that the sociopath and the empath were always equal, mirrors in opposition in pain, two halves of a broken heart — a child’s broken heart.

When the narcissist strikes the empath with violence, it’s always a sign they’ve lost control. They feel the borderline may be better than them, and they panic in fear.

The empath goes through this many times: it’s like training for spiritual warfare.

What narcissists don’t realize is that when they lose control and attack, they actually give us power because of how resilient our healing.

They can’t conceptualize grieving or empathy, which is why empaths are always underestimated by narcissists. It’s also why they hate us and design their masks after us and then tell us we’re crazy and invalidate our feelings.

It took me a long time to understand that not everyone can feel empathy. I didn’t understand the apathy in the face of horrors in the world, or why people around me drained me of all my compassion, but left me when I was most in need.

As I recognized the severity and how common NPD and ASPD are, I started to ask people what they thought empathy was. That’s when I realized they didn’t experience what I did. People answered that it meant caring about social issues, being political, or basic human kindness.

To them, empathy was an action, which means it was cognitive.

To me, it’s FEELINGS.

And it’s EXTREMELY PAINFUL and exhausting.

For example, if a student comes to my office and cries about something awful, I feel everything they feel and I also often begin to cry. Sometimes I will have to go home and grieve a bit. This is why empaths commonly discuss feeling drained, needing time alone, and needing to be away from social media.

If I see a child orphaned from war, I feel a devestation so bottomless, I can’t even describe it here. It affects my body and mental health. I often have to call out of work.

Needless to say, I grieve A LOT. BPD, as best I can describe it, is lifelong, perpetual grieving.

And I can’t turn my empathy off. I see people as human no matter what. I don’t see anyone as better than anyone else, and I’m not better than anyone either just because I can feel empathy in a broken world.

My suicidal ideation is the byproduct of being around so many who lack the emotional intelligence or the conviction to do anything about all the senseless pain in the world and people’s inability to self reflect or take accountability or heal their traumas, as they inflict trauma recklessly on those around them.

The lack of empathy is why this world is so heartbreaking to me to live in. If people felt it, I know we’d solve so many problems, because empathy causes me to see many solutions through recognizing our common humanity and pain, even in the people who hurt others the most.

Sound logic takes head and heart — and the reason why we live in a world of such madness is because we’ve normalized child abuse that causes brain damage that impacts empathy, making us predators to one another.

Narcissists and sociopaths commonly don’t believe empathy is real, or they believe they have it when they only have cognitive and performative empathy: so their borderline family scapegoats deeply trigger them, as do borderlines they meet in the outside world.

If empathy is real, then that means they are not perfect or the best in the world.

It means they’re MISSING something.

So when they meet someone who actually feels it, they want to hurt that person to ensure no one is better than them, or at least confuse that person or make them feel inadequate so they won’t trust their intuition, feelings, or reality. Flicker the gaslight.

The empath can go near-death many times while unawakened, half believing it’s really true that they’re crazy, too emotional, too much, unlovable, deserving of abuse.

But then one of the sociopaths triggers a DARK EMPATH AWAKENING.

A spiritual death of the empath.

A crucifixion and resurrection.

Empaths have wandered the world lifelong orphaned, abused, betrayed, and abandoned: when this attack happens — their worst ever — they have no one to turn to but God.

And God responds.

God is the only parent who never lets them down.

God reveals that the narcissist could never have control or power: only God has that, and we must completely surrender if we want to experience real love.

The empath’s powers grow and miracles and signs and dreams and premonitions abound.

A deeply magical and transformative journey of self love and healing begins.

People think a dark empath is someone who goes to war with sociopaths, using all their tools.

No, no, no — a person who thinks like that is just a sociopath.

They all think they’re Batman. They think their victims deserve it. They think all their victims are narcissists, whether they are or not. And they think narcissist means “all bad” while empath means “all good.” They project. It’s all self delusion.

No one is all good or all bad. No one.

It’s narcissistic fantasy.

An empath goes into a dark empath awakening when their divine love grows so strong, that it can shed light in THE DARKEST PLACES.

To get there, we experience a soul death: an agonizing DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL.

The empath heals enough to see themselves clearly and trust their mission, love their gifts, and use them with purpose, surrendering fully to the divine.

IF YOU ASK GOD FOR WISDOM, HE’LL SHOW YOU THE DARKEST PAIN.

Make no mistake: it’s not pretty. The empath’s life is not a life I would wish on people.

God’s wisdom is a flaming sword through the heart.

Empathy HURTS, and while many people love you for it, many of those same people will eventually resent it and others downright HATE YOU for it.

A lot of people pretend to love you, copy you, and showcase later that they’ll betray you in the most malicious ways.

The most dangerous thing to be in this world is an empathetic, loving person.

And we have to face some of the darkest, most shameful truths about humanity at the hands of sociopaths.

I was always told that you attained the kingdom of heaven when you let Jesus into your heart.

It was only when I found forgiveness in my heart for my split soul sociopath that I understood that the kingdom of heaven is truly within.

And only then did I finally start forgiving myself and reparing my self love in a meaningful way.

When I write his truth as I understand how his trauma responses shape him, I want readers to understand that his childhood pain was unthinkably severe, that he had a lot of unprocessed grief in him.

When I could resolve what happened to me from him with empathy, I found deeper truths and healing.

The buried anger was a poison. The lack of my self love was a demon chasing me. And the narcissists who hurt me were the false gods I worshipped.

God is love, compassion, and forgiveness.

And the more I embraced that part of my heart, the more blessings came.

I now serve my mission, triggered to deep healing and awareness by my dark empath awakening, and I don’t fear what the end looks like for me or any sociopath who comes to thwart it.

I know where real power lies and who’s really in control.

Don’t be discouraged that 2Pac was murdered in the end: God was always in control.

2Pac, of course, lives on. He shows us that death is always an illusion.

2Pac, the empath, fulfilled his spiritual mission here, with his astoundingly brave and wise 26 years processing the pain of those suffering tremendously around him, and those inflicting pain upon him. He left us many lessons.

2Pac’s blessings in life were many. He left us with enduring poetry and wisdom. Still today, diverse listeners feel understood in their pain when they listen to 2Pac.

He did what he came here to do, and his message of forgiveness is one that we should all take note on.

He rests in peace and power.

I believe 2Pac and Biggie are together now: and they aren’t mad at each other.

BECAUSE THEY ARE ONE.

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Anne M. Champion is the author of This is a Story About Ghosts: A Memoir of Borderline Personality Disorder (KDP, 2024), Hunted Carrion: Sonnets to a Stalker (KDP, 2024), She Saints & Holy Profanities (Quarterly West, 2019), The Good Girl is Always a Ghost (Black Lawrence Press, 2018), Book of Levitations (Trembling Pillow Press, 2019), Reluctant Mistress (Gold Wake Press, 2013), and The Dark Length Home (Noctuary Press, 2017). Her work appears in Verse Daily, diode, Tupelo Quarterly, Prairie Schooner, Crab Orchard Review, Salamander, New South, Redivider, PANK Magazine, and elsewhere. She was a 2009 Academy of American Poets Prize recipient, a 2016 Best of the Net winner, a Douglas Preston Travel Grant recipient, and a Barbara Deming Memorial Grant recipient. She has degrees in Behavioral Psychology and Creative Writing.